IUI #4 - Game Plan

So my check up with Dr. S yesterday… I have an ovulatory cyst that she says is small and is nothing to worry about, but they’ll keep a close eye on it. And we came up with a new game plan. Dr. B’s nurse Glenna was there and I love her. She had paperwork filled out for us because she just knew we wanted to be more aggressive now. Glenna came and got us from the waiting room and took us to examination room and said, “What am I going to do with you? I was so sure it was going to work this time! Everything was lining up!”

“Me too, Glenna… Me too”

And then Dr. S comes in once I got undressed and even she was telling us that she thought IUI #3 was it for us. We didn’t tell all of our friends and family that we were doing treatments again, but for the few that did know, even they were shocked it didn’t work out.

GAME PLAN:
150mg Clomid CD 3-7. Ovidrel (forgot the mgs) on CD 9. Mid cycle check on CD 13. IUI on either CD 15 or 16.

Side note, this is the worse boobs and back ache from AF that I’ve ever had!!

IUI #3 :: 11dpo

I am now 11dpo. 7dpo I started to have sore nipples. 9dpo it spread out a little, so my whole breast isn’t tender, just my nipples and some of the area around it.

I do not want to get my hopes up but this has never happened to me before. I told Northern Starr about what was happening and he keeps asking, “Well do you think you feel this way because you ‘know’ you’re supposed to feel this way, if you’re pregnant?” I’m not lying. I can’t fake sore boobs. I haven’t had any implantation bleeding, and I feel like I would have already had that by now. There’s been some cramping though, but not sure if it was just gas or an upset tummy. Ugh, the 2WW.

By this time next week, we will know if IUI #3 is Yay or Nay.

IUI #3 and Progesterone Levels

IUI #3 was set for the 25th (CD 17)

At out mid-cycle check we were given the trigger shot to take home, for it to be injected that night between 10-10:30PM. I’m a wuss when it comes to needles. As much as I’ve been probed and picked at throughout our almost 3 years TTC, with needles and ultrasound wands, I have gotten better. Now I watch when they put the needle in me, and I watch them draw my blood. But I cannot make myself give me the trigger shot. Northern Starr does it. And he doesn’t have a problem doing it… again, he is a certified EMT! So IUI #3 was on the 25th. I’m so proud of Northern Starr’s swimmers!!! 94 million!!! That is more than double, almost triple, the swimmers in IUI 1 and 2 combined!!! I have to say, I’m being very optimistic about this cycle! Please keep Northern Starr and I in your thoughts and prayers. As of right now we are in the 2WW.

Yesterday I had to go to the REs yesterday to do an ultrasound to check my progesterone levels. I’ve never had that checked before. Dr. W checked me this time (he also did IUI #3) and he showed us that both of my ovaries are empty, so I did respond great to the medicines and ovulated. And he measured my lining and said that looked perfect as well. I’m not sure if I heard him or understood him right but we think he took a picture of my two mature follicles, but I didn’t think that you’d be able to see that. ??? If any of you ladies reading have had something like this, please help me confirm.

One week left until we find out. I’m trying not to get my hopes up but as Dr. W’s nurse said at yesterday’s appointment, “it looks like the stars are aligning!” Everything looks and sounds as if it is all going to work out. Please let it work out!

It's Been Awhile...

This cycle was a fail.  Let me tell you, it’s pretty hard to keep positive.  I know last post I said that if this cycle failed then we’d call our RE and start having medicated cycles.  I was pretty confident then about this last cycle working.  I’m dreading going back to Dr B.  Don’t get me wrong, we LOVE him.  He’s so sweet and encouraging and doesn’t make me feel like all he wants is our money LOL! 

Dr B’s office is an hour and a half drive from our town.  The town we live in is pretty big and has RE’s, but Northern Starr and I tried out Dr. B because the center he works for is well known, has excellent reviews… plus their website has a little “get to know us” section.  I know that shouldn’t really count, but I liked that everyone who works in that office (even the receptionist) had their picture up with a little biography.  Not like most medical center websites where they only list things about the Drs.  Knowing more about the lady who always answers when I call there, who checks me in, who takes my co-pay… makes me feel more at ease and I kinda feel like I can talk to her about anything.  I know it’s weird but that’s just me ha-ha!

So back to me being unsure about going back to Dr B’s.  I haven’t told Northern Starr yet but I think I want to wait another month and start going back in August.  And I think when we go back; I want to try the inject ables.  I’m scared of needles, but I’ve read some stuff about it and I think it would help us more than just being on Clomid.  He’ll be understanding, but also a little disappointed about waiting another month.  Ugh, maybe I should just do it already, make the call.

Have any of you tried the inject ables?

First Post

First Post of my New Blog.

I shut down my first blog because.. Well frankly there was just too much drama.

Yesterday was Mother's Day.  And no, I'm not a "real" mom.  So yesterday kind of sucked for me.  I have two FURbabies, "they" got me a mother's day card.  But it's just not the same.  Not that I'm ungrateful because I did cry.  Just in other people’s eyes, being a FURmom doesn't count. 

North Star (Husband/how I find my way home) and I had dinner with his parents and his sister and her son.  Of course my MIL and SIL got gifts because they're REAL mothers.  But I didn't get any acknowledgements.  Why am I being a sap about this?!?  Ugh, I'm just frustrated people. 

When will I be a real mom?  I want it so badly.  We want it so badly!  It's been almost a year since we went on a break from TTC.  North Star keeps asking me when will I make an appointment with our RE.  As much as I want to have a child, I'm scared shitless!  I just don't think I can handle being disappointed again.  Last year, after all the fertility testing, we did 2 IUIs (all we had money left for).  2 FAILED IUIs.  The medicine made me a mad woman and then to top it off, having the disappointment of negative pregnancy test made me super depressed. 

It's a 50/50 chance.  And I'm just going to have to suck it up.  I'll post on here if I do decide to go back to my RE.

Always,
AStarLightDreamer