IUI #3 :: Negative

I haven’t taken a pregnancy test yet. AF is here, so I know the test will be negative. But I will still POAS tomorrow morning to confirm. We are seeing Dr. S tomorrow afternoon to discuss our options. IVF is out of the question for us. So we know we will do another IUI. But maybe up the meds or do Clomid + injects, or just injects ??? We’ll see what Dr. S recommends and go from there.

I’m surprisingly not as devastated as I thought I’d be. I mean, I am crushed. But the last two IUIs, you couldn’t get me out of bed even if the house was on fire. And here I am, at work, going on about my day like it’s a normal day. I guess it is a normal day. For everyone else. As much as I hyped myself up for it, I’m okay. God knew it wasn’t the right time. My due date would’ve been July 16th. There’s already too many birthdays in July LOL!

Staying positive! Keep sending me positive vibes people!

IUI #3 :: 11dpo

I am now 11dpo. 7dpo I started to have sore nipples. 9dpo it spread out a little, so my whole breast isn’t tender, just my nipples and some of the area around it.

I do not want to get my hopes up but this has never happened to me before. I told Northern Starr about what was happening and he keeps asking, “Well do you think you feel this way because you ‘know’ you’re supposed to feel this way, if you’re pregnant?” I’m not lying. I can’t fake sore boobs. I haven’t had any implantation bleeding, and I feel like I would have already had that by now. There’s been some cramping though, but not sure if it was just gas or an upset tummy. Ugh, the 2WW.

By this time next week, we will know if IUI #3 is Yay or Nay.

IUI #3 and Progesterone Levels

IUI #3 was set for the 25th (CD 17)

At out mid-cycle check we were given the trigger shot to take home, for it to be injected that night between 10-10:30PM. I’m a wuss when it comes to needles. As much as I’ve been probed and picked at throughout our almost 3 years TTC, with needles and ultrasound wands, I have gotten better. Now I watch when they put the needle in me, and I watch them draw my blood. But I cannot make myself give me the trigger shot. Northern Starr does it. And he doesn’t have a problem doing it… again, he is a certified EMT! So IUI #3 was on the 25th. I’m so proud of Northern Starr’s swimmers!!! 94 million!!! That is more than double, almost triple, the swimmers in IUI 1 and 2 combined!!! I have to say, I’m being very optimistic about this cycle! Please keep Northern Starr and I in your thoughts and prayers. As of right now we are in the 2WW.

Yesterday I had to go to the REs yesterday to do an ultrasound to check my progesterone levels. I’ve never had that checked before. Dr. W checked me this time (he also did IUI #3) and he showed us that both of my ovaries are empty, so I did respond great to the medicines and ovulated. And he measured my lining and said that looked perfect as well. I’m not sure if I heard him or understood him right but we think he took a picture of my two mature follicles, but I didn’t think that you’d be able to see that. ??? If any of you ladies reading have had something like this, please help me confirm.

One week left until we find out. I’m trying not to get my hopes up but as Dr. W’s nurse said at yesterday’s appointment, “it looks like the stars are aligning!” Everything looks and sounds as if it is all going to work out. Please let it work out!

Mid-Cycle Check, IUI #3

Northern Starr and I were soooo excited to be able to see my right ovary that we got to our REs 45mins before our appointment lol! But without further a do... Ladies and gents... my right ovary

She has some follies in their too. But none were mature enough to be a contender. On my left side however.... were 2 really good candidates!!! Here they are.

My follicles measured 19x20 and 21x25 We are a go, mission control for IUI#3!!!

CD 7 of IUI#3

My hot flashes have begun.  I started taking Clomid on CD 3, I'm surprised its taken this long.  My last day on Clomid is this Saturday.

I really hope and pray that my follies will be really mature, I want at least 3 "good" ones.  At the end of July, Dr. S saw around 50 follices in my left ovary.  And now that my right ovary should be visible, I'm more optimistic that everything will work out!  I know, I know.... I shouldn't set myself up and jinx it.  I will be devastated if this isn't "THE ONE." 

I wish infertility didn't exsist!  Next month will mark our 3 years of trying to get pregnant.  Lets hope we won't have to mark it ;)

Flash Back Friday

So this morning I was going through some file folders that I haven't looked in, in ages!!!  Here are some pictures of me and my best friends.  My soul sisters... Sisters from another mother (and father)...  I love these girls with all my heart.  And I miss them everyday since I moved away from them to be with Northern Starr, here in Virginia.  But like always, when we're together, it's as if I've never left.  =)

Lehua, Kristin, and Sabrina

Yes, I do have a short tongue, but I do NOT talk with a speech impediment.  In this picture, this is the longest I can stick my tongue out =/

Again, at a Tea Party where we HAD to wear fancy dresses, boas, and tiaras!

Get Crazy! (That's my mother's oldest sister top left)

Pretend like you're sleeping... (Me:  You bitches make like you don't sleep with your mouths open!  All of them:  I don't  Me:  Oh... Well fuck... LOL!!!

Post Operation Check-Up

Overdue again, I blame myself for being lazy.

We got to our REs on the 27^th, waited in the waiting room for a few minutes and Glenna (Dr. B’s nurse) called us back.  She took us straight to the exam room.  Northern Starr said, “Wow, no choice for you, it’s straight to the exam room!”  So we get in there and Glenna tells me to just unbutton my pants and lay down so Dr. B can inspect my incision scar.  Then she left the room.

I just looked at Northern Starr… “They’re not going to look at my ovary?  I want to see it.  I shaved my legs for this!”  Insert Northern Starr’s uncontrollable laughing here. LOL!

Dr. B comes in and checks my scar.  He said that I’m healing just perfectly!!!  I told him that I’m still numb from under my belly button to the top of my scar.  He said that I may never get feeling back there.  It’s all about the way my nerves heal and come together.  Dr. B said that if I do get feeling back, it will come and go a lot.  Insert my shocked face here, and Northern Starr’s “I told you so.”  Hate that he knows a lot of medical stuff.  I’m never right in these situations.  All because he’s a certified EMT.  BLAH!

Afterwards, Dr. B said for me to get dressed and for us to meet him in his office and we’ll go over a few things.  He left; I sat up, got off the table and buttoned back up.  We headed over to his office, down the hallway.  We talked about Provera, which I told him that I wanted because even though I started when I was supposed to after my surgery, it was only for 2 days and really light, so I didn’t have much of a period.  He agreed and wrote the prescription.  Then he asked what we wanted to do as far as treatment.  I said that we want to do Clomid plus injectables.  Dr. B said, “let’s compromise.”  He feels that it’s too soon to jump into something that will over stimulate my ovaries, so we are just going to do Clomid this cycle with the IUI.  Should this cycle not work, we can do Clomid plus the injections.  And possibly back to back IUIs. 

Game plan set.

I started taking the Provera and 5 days after AF came.  I’m on CD 3 now, day 1 of Clomid.  And our mid cycle check is on the 23^rd.

Provera made me more grumpier than usual.  And now, with the Clomid, here comes more moodiness and the hot flashes.  Bring it on!!  It will all be worth it in the end when we are holding our little bundle(s) of joy!