The Stand Still

Here is the much needed update.  I know people are reading my blogs because I see the views going up... but no comments.  Please comment.  I would love to get to know my readers.


On the fertility side.  There is no news.  We haven't done any treatments this year.  Due to our big move and only having Northern Star's income.  His insurance towards fertility treatments is alright.  Not as great as it was with his last job.  This time around we have to meet our deductible first and then 10% after that.  Whereas before, his insurance paid a lot of money towards our treatments before we ever had to come out of pocket.

On the job front (for me):  I'm still unemployed.  I shouldn't care where I work or for how much, especially in this economy.  But Hawaii traffic is the pits!  I want to work closer to home or in the towns surrounding where I live.  The pay sucks but I've actually interviewed at a couple of places nearby for way less money than I'm used to bringing home.  I don't mean to offend anyone but the last time I worked for less than $10 an hour was my first job ever, right out of high school.  Right now I am babysitting my brothers 2 kids while he and his girlfriend go to work.  I'm not being compensated however.  And I'm afraid that if I ask to start getting paid they'll just find someone else that would watch the kids for free, like his girlfriends mom.  And then when I try to be around the kids they'll make it hard on me and take the kids away before I can pick them up to carry them or something.  It sounds really childish.  But that's how it is here.  Family is supposed to mean everything but it seems like now days, every one's all for themselves, not just my family... everyone.

We moved back home to Hawaii because this is where we want to live.  My family is all around.  But now that we are back here... a lot has changed.  People grow up and have different experiences which turns them into different people.  Now I feel like the move back was a big mistake and I want to go back to the east coast.

Blah, blah, blah, blah... blah.